Two things can be true

something that spoke volumes to me was when i was given permission to feel two conflicting feelings at once. there is something inside of me that wants to be one thing or another. i think part of this is because of the world telling me i need to decide. the pressure of being in boxes to decide who we are when really we are complex. we are made up of many different traits and that is being human. my inner dialogue tells me that i am wrong and wants an answer. this causes me to have inner conflict within myself and then shaming begins. especially when it comes to how i feel about my past. i want to be over things and feel frustrated when i have days when i am not over it. i have to have grace for myself to allow those feelings to exist with the others. you cant have joy without suffering and pain. two things have to exist at the same time. i am either too much or too little. i feel strongly about one concept but can see the other side. this happens when you are someone who sees everyone’s perspectives. it can feel overwhelming and you can get lost on what you truly feel or ultimately what you stand for.